Ba't kaya ganun? Dati okay lang na may magka-crush sa girlfriend, okay lang na may nag-text sa kanya. Okay lang na nag-uusap pa sila nung ex niya, pero bakit ngayon iba na ang nararamdaman ko tuwing may nangyayaring ganito? Naiinis ako. What? I can't accept the fact that something like that is possible? Eh kung sa maganda girlfriend mo wala kang magagawa dun. It's not like you own her you know.

Ba't ka nga ba naiiinis at naiirita? Siya din naman ganun eh, tuwing kausap ko 'yung ex ko naiinis siya sa ex ko, siguro naiinis din siya sa akin. Saan nag-uugat ang inis ko? Malay ko ba. Pero this is what happened in the recent week. There's this guy, may crush ata sa kanya. Hinihingi ba naman 'yung ID niya, the nerve. Now why would someone do something like that? Joke lang ba 'yun? Pwede. Ano nga 'yung kanta? "the joke was on me" pero it wasn't me who started the joke. He was able to get her number and he texts her, and even her e-mail add. Determined whatever, so she sends her e-mail. He was able to get hold of that, I'm just being paranoid. I'm not just comfortable with the attention she's getting. Actually, okay lang pa rin sa akin 'yun eh, now why does she save his messages? It's a lovey dovey cutey quote. I might even be insecure because I'm not getting that kind of attention. Poor me, boohoo!

The last time I got that sort of attention, well never mind. It's not worth remembering, I have vague recollections of the event. I'm not even sure if it happened. I need to get this out, I have been hiding this matter for two days now. I asked her if I could see her phone and read the text messages in her inbox, no harm there. She's does the same with my phone. I mean, I let her see my inbox. I don't find that wrong or unethical. I just did this because she does it. I was amazed that she saved 3 messages that I sent her, I was flattered really. Now don't get me wrong, this is about me, not her. I need to get this out of my system, it's driving me crazy.

I should've finished this discussion with her. Kung dinelete na lang kasi niya 'yun eh.